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Monday, November 25

Parkville, Missouri, Mile 377

i just reread yesterday's journal, and here post a note for the attrocious typos - which i am going to leave in place: i was writing in my fingerless gloves, my fingers freezing, the wind blowing cold, ash and smoke from the fire blowing round my face. and so i will leave the messy writing in place as it will help describe the environment as i was there writing.

4am this morning: the jets beginning to roar, the trains rolling all night long (at dark i was imagining the engineer leaning his head out the window and watching us in the light of our bonfire, our faces visible in the light of the flames), all else was silent, not even a possum was stirring. i didn't hear nothing last night except the wind and the steady riolling freight trains, it seemed like one an hour, a lot of freight being moved around this country.

venus was our guiding light this morning when we put out on the water (6am), still quite visible above the lights of kansas city, dancing merrily over the amber glow of the city, herself clad in a sparkling dress of yellow sequins, light radiating off her dancing shoes and her diamond tiara, ever beckoning us on (since her reappearance in the morning sky a couple of weeks ago), she will be our guide to St. Louis, eventually she will guide me back to the woman who awaits me at the bluff city.

there is a disparate collision of forces on the winter river, the south wind and the north wind, (the same zephyr and borealis that used to toss walter anderson around the waters of the mississippi gulf islands), the green grasses and the barren cottonwoods, the warm sun and the cold river, the low-angle light followed by the 360 degree predominance of the stars and planets, the long nights and short days, the wild river bottoms and the pastoral society over the levee, the wilderness and the power plants, mansions on the edges of the cities and river rat camps below wing dams, the brutal wind and serene campsites, the carnage of hunters and the proclivity of creatures, the chaos of driftwood the noble forests, the adundance of life the comstant reminder of death, and etc & c. all of these elements, sometimes polarized, sometimes not, tug at the imagination. they might cause the body discomfort, but the spirit is set free.

Sunday, November 24

Between Sevenmile and Island Creeks, Mile 387

the sun is setting over the riverblurff opposite us, its branches scraping the sky, you can see every twig silhouettedin the layers of cloud and light which are sliding southeastward, a cold north wind blowing - the arctic air has caught up with us again, everywhere we go borealis is chasing us. i have been seeing geese flying with the wind today, not against it as yesterday. it earlier looked like snow or sleet, but now it looks like the sky is going to cleaer and the temperature drop. it is fitting that our last night before kansas city we get hit again with winter, we seem to be harbingers of winter wherever we go.

a sad story: in atchison we were greeted by a family. they were going out in a boat downstream to look for their son, who they believe fell off the atchison bridge. as we passed under the rusting steel structure (its an attractive bridge) i thought of their boy walking out along the pipe on the other side of the guardrail, then falling to the water. we told them that we would keep our eyes open for him as we paddled downstream for which they thanked us profusely.

now the sun is dropping below the cloudline, the outer edge flaring yellow, and i am illuminated for these few minutes before sunset, a band of brilliantly highlighted choppy waves made in the river, two bald eagles, who greetedus upon our arrival, are now soaring over the bluff. it seemed impossible that they have found a place to soar with such high winds, the bluffs must be sending skyward billowing volumes of air and buffeting them along. dear reader, yuou are probably thinking, "doesn't he evr study anyuthing else other than the eagles? my notebook is full of eagle drawings, sketches, descriptions, pastels, and paintings. well yes, there are other animals. i saw some bluejays today, scavaging in the lee of the riverbank, alongside some small songbirds, maybe wrens. but no animal is so prevalant, and so easily viewed as we paddle along. with a stunning wingspan, and its striking cry, who could but not be in constant awe of our friend wanbli? i am sorry we stopped here, because we are quite exposed. my rule of thumb is "stop at the first good camp you come to." but now the wind has shifted and we are being hit with numbing cold air. perhaps it will still after nightfall. its going to be a miserable night if it doesn't.

 

Saturday, November 23

Opposite Fort Leavenworth, Kansas

I got an email today from Venessia Young. She and her mother have been following us. Hello eKatherine and Venessia! Thanks for keeping up with us, keep us in your thoughts and prayers!

everywhere we have camped since bismark, north dakota, we have been near loud noises, bright lights, or noxious fumes. it is surprising how many power plants there are on the missouri. there's no way the few people who actually inhabit the shores use all of the electricity produced, so it must be generated for export, i imagine chicago, minneapolis, and other midwestern metropolises benefit from this power. while our surroundings might be quite different than what lewis & clark experienced, the act of camping is the same, we still cook over a fire, sleep in our bags thrown in tents (i sleep in the water ram when its not raining or snowing). a good campsite is a good campsite, it doesn't matter which era you are from. tops on my list is sand or grasses, proximity to the canoes (which means a good landing and a camp close to it) and driftwood or other firewood readily available.

the missouri seems to be widening a little bit here, and its curves have taken on bigger dimension, requiring more miles to get around the corner. at sioux city the bends seem to come every three or four miles, but here it seems more like seven or eight. there is a formula for river curves, which says that a river makes a bend every seven times its width, so maybe that is in effect.

i saw a huge flock of migratory birds this afternoon, far over the forest, it looked like a cloud from the distance. overhead were more snow geese going north, once again fighting the north wind. i thoought i heard a frog in the warmth of the afternoon, but that might have been wishful thinking. i did see several moths and butterflies crossing the river, and it was an afternoon for flying spiders, the air was laced with their long range webs, they kept landing in my canoe and climbing around my gear, i was glad for the company. thick swaths of willows are beginning to be seen on the sandbars, their leaves turning a fiery orange, the sight of them reflected in the river reminds me of the lower mississippi. a flock of wild turkeys flew across the river just before sundown, their bodies fat and black, flying in a beeline from one shore across to the other. i wonder what a wild turkey would taste like roasted up overe our fire. we saw some white tailed deer just before we made our landing for camp.

 

Friday, November 22

Mile 442, below St. Joseph, Missouri

i'm sitting by the fire watching the full moon rise through the thin cottonwoods on the opposite bank. we left st. joseph a few hours earlier today, i had the time to visit the albrecht kemper museum while mike charged batteries and did computer stuff. it suddenly makes sense why thomas hart benton wrapped his horizons towards the edges of his paintings, the landscape is just too big, the river views too wide, the sky too broad an expanse, the canvas is too small, no canvas would be big enough to be able to fit it in proper proportion. in omaha i saw some of karl bodmer's originals at the joslyn museum. his solution was too diminunitize the forest, the hills, the mountains, while leaving the sky and the river full scale. my favorite bodmer's are his forest scenes, those from the wabash and the lower mississippi. as a documentor of the american indian he is unsuropassed. but his painting really comes out as his brush follows the lines of the trees, the vines drooped over them, the chaotic piles of driftwood, and his grasses, sometimes emerging from somber dark places, other times blowing in a sunny wind.

as we paddled out of st. jo we had a farewell committee: a herd of wild turkeys ("flock" just doesn't seem to apply to turkeys somehow) directly below a grain elevator:

a herd of wild turkeys

scurrying by the grain elevator

gobble! gobble! gobble!

and then as darkness fell, five eagles were perched in a cottonwood, our welcoming committee to the night:

five silent wanbli waiting in a tree

when we pass under

scree! scree! scree!

now an owl is hooting in the forest, and some deer run behind our camp. how do i know they're deer? for the snorting sound. every day now we look for wanbli, the eagle, he seems to be our guardian angel. this morning the river bluffs were clipped by wide beams of sunlight, heavy with humidity, humid shafts of light descending between breaks in the bluffs, in one mike was momentarily exposed as he paddled toward a solid wall of bluff, rising immensly in front of his passage, dark and forbidding, like the oncoming wall of a tsunami, the sunlight striking him as if someone backstage had cast him in the spotlight.

another frosty morning, never before have i needed an ice scraper for my canoe. when i get home, and people ask me about the expedition, i'll tell them it was an ice-scraper expedition.

Thursday, November 21

Mile 478, somewhere below White Cloud, Kansas

we're camped on a muddy flat below a dike, just downstream from cannon creek, when we brought the canoes in for a landing it was just getting dark. will we ever see a camp in the daylight? it seems doubtful given the amount of daylight we are now experiencing. our consolation here is the view of bluffs opposite us, which even in the darkness loom gigantically over the river, the trees in our camp standing out silhouetted in the evening light, with which the river is shining. it has been a windy day, gusts of wind out of the north pounding the river and keeping us frantically paddling left and right. we were blessed that it was a northerly wind. the other consolation is the sound of the river rolling over the dike. we haven't had much river noise since our camp at prairie elk rapids. dozens of flocks of snow geese fighting the north wind. they should be going south. i wonder why they were so insistent? all day we saw them as we we borne southward in the same wind they chose to flap against, often times with little motion. perhaps they know something we don't.

three nights out of the last four we have paddled into the night, by moonlight (tomorrow morning we'll begin paddling again with the light of luna, as we make an early start). night paddling is a boon for us in this season of short light. the river here has been so channelized you could navigate it blindfolded. night paddling has another benefit. those bends that bore you during the day with their monotony suddenly junp to life at night. every motion of the canoe, every paddle stroke forward, every motion of the river, you register by the silhouettes of the trees passing each other, trees passing forests or bluffs behind, the bluffs sliding through the stars hung in the blue black sky. in no circumstance can you better feel the the curving motion of the river as it implacably slides through america's heartland.

todays' firsts: a possum is prowling around our camp, so i guess that means we're getting south. I saw my first honey locust tree on the missouri side of the channel. the maples, which seemed to enter the river scape even with the confluence of the platte (fifteen miles below omaha), are now flush with leaves still in the cycle of change. i saw green moss growing in the forest floor around rulo, missouri.

i have been studying the color and the shapes of the oak trees, which huddle like clotted blood on a barn floor in the riverside bluffs. the oaks, the beech, and the sycamore are all hanging stubbornly to their leaves. i have also been studying the effect of gusting wind on the face of the water, and the way in which small waves add up to bigger ones.

 

Sunday, November 16

Mile 644, below OPPD Nuclear Power Plant

a night float with a moon near full:

we started out this morning with our usual early start, 6:30am, i was trying to decide which way the wind was blowing, it seemed westerly, then northwesterly, but we were camped below a grove of trees, and alas, the wind was out of the south. as we paddled into sunrise it proceeded to blow harder and harder. we kept paddling until noon, when it the river began whitecapping in the sections exposed to the southeast, and then lay-by for it to settle down.

at sundown we began paddling anew, the wind indeed quieted down, but not calm, still blowing out of the southeast. fortunately the winding of the river foiled the full brunt of the wind, and we paddled into the night on a mostly quiet river, the forest beginning to awaken with the sounds of the nocturnal creatures. at dark, two eagles started out of the trees, and a third, a bald eagle, stood on a branch and eyed us fearlessly (the others were probably bald eagles as well, but i didn't get a good look at them). beavers could be heard chewing bark. i scared a racoon off a sandbar. some deer were in the woods: we could hear the snapping of branches, and buck snorts. the moon was already risen before the sun set (it is one or two days away from full), so we could see the face of the river clearly, the boils exploding seemlessly amidst the current, making undulating mirrors. i wondered if keith kirkland was out on the wolf river or the lower mississippi doing one of his full moon floats.

for all of its channelization, the missouri here is excellent night paddling: it is wide with good current. there is no traffic, and finally there are no buoys. our friends the geese began flocking after the sunset, we could see thousands of them silhouetted by the moon. it was funny that they waited until sunday night to fly. all weekend we had been encountering frustrated hunters, wondering where all the waterfowl were. One hunter told me that 400,000 geese had ended up a place outside their normal miggration route: western nebraska, out on the wyoming/colorado borders. some storm had blown them there he said. i knew which storm he was referring to! it was the storm that brought snow and sub-zero temperatures to us as we were paddling the section below fort peck. so the geese we saw in montana made it to nebraska! this was exciting news.

 

Thursday, November 14

Somewhere above Ponca, Nebraska

wow, warm feet sure feel good on a cold day. all morning i was paddling along in the cold wind out of the northwest, overcast, the rest of me toasty, but my feet not getting circulation. when we stopped for lunch i made a big fire and took off my boots, dried my socks, we ate, heated up some tea, then started paddling again. it was almost like getting in your car with a mug of coffee on a winter's day. this is a routine mike and i have devoloped on the missouri, and it sure is nice. that little spot of tea while you're paddling away from camp makes the paddling a little more cheerful. and my warm feet made me feel like singing.

we almost paddled fifty miles today, our biggest day yet, and our first full day on the free-flowing river. from here on out there are no dams, no lakes to get around, no one controls the flow except the dear lord (and the engineers at the last dam, gavin's point). i was so happy yesterday to see free-flowing water i almost cried. we awoke at 5am and were paddling by 6:30, after a breakfast of 9 eggs and leftover quinoa.

the missouri at low water doesn't follow normal rules of river circulation. it's quite confusing. on the big river (when its flowing bank full) the current generally stays on the outside of the bend. on the little river (low water) the channel seems to often hug the inside of the bend. i am glad it does, it cuts off some mileage, but it has taken me a while to become accustomed to, and when i get back to my dear old lower mississippi it may require some time to become unaccustomed. it's like learning to read backwards in japan, then having to learn to read the opposite upon returning home. several times during the day i was happily paddling along in a generous current, (practically singing through the lowlands compared to the sluggish water we have experienced to date), and then suddenly found myself bereft of water motion. the river had abandoned me, several hundred yards away another channel was endowed with the water i had been floating on.

every day we have seen eagles and today was no exception. i saw seveeral flocks of plovers. and dozens of flocks of plastic geese. it is that time of year and the hunters have staked their claim on the sandbars. there were more plastic geese and ducks than live. i talked to a disgruntled hunter, he hadn't seen any waterfowl. just before dark, as miguel and i were coming in for our landing at camp three flocks of geese passed high overhead. so, our friends have caught up with us again.

 

 

Saturday, November 9

Mobridge, South Dakota

(more notes from an artist's writing pad):

finally a sunny day (the day we left bismark) and calm enough for me to jump in the river and bathe, its been several days now, the water is cold to be sure, but its not a good swim until you get an ice cream headache.

we entered an area of granite and square buttes in north dakota, granite boulders protruding out of the river banks, colorful granite stones, some reddish, some rosy, some bluish or yellowish, all speckled in that grainy granite way. wonderful sandbars. if it wasn't wintertime, and we weren't seeking shelter every night, the sandbars would be great camping. as it is, we take cover in the safety of the cottonwoods. like lewis and clark, we wouldn't have been able to get this far without these trees of the floodplains. how dismal it seems on the edges of the big lakes of the missouri, where the trees have all been flooded, or can't grow because of the fluctuating water levels (for instance, lake oahe is 30 feet under normal). south dakota seems to have similar geology, the land lines far extended over great distances, disappearing over the horizon, short but solid buttes, tawny grasslands, some badlands, the grassy heights crumbling away here and there, the smoothness of the great plains falling away into multi-colored earth eroded into strange shapes: chimneys, cornices, thick mud found below, the kind of mud that sticks between your toes and doesn't let go, what they call gumbo in the mississippi delta.

i am always glad to be following the river, and slightly uneasy to be away from it, its always we've rambled, this river you and i. my rivers must always be clean, i must always be able to swim in my river, to drink its waters, anything less is unaaceptable. everyone follows the rivers, at first anyway, the explorers, the trappers, the hunters, the miners, the ranchers, the homesteaders, its only the trains, the planes, the highways that have deviated (good riddance!). its always i've followed the river, when my path has forked it my body only that climbs the hill and walks away, my heart stays tumbling with the current.

 

Sunday, Nov. 3

Washburn, North Dakota (John)

(more notes from an artist's writing pad):

wind out of the west, the sun just rose an orange ball out of the forest opposite us and now the geese are rising in noisy flocks from the sand flats at the base of the island above us, i slept in the dugout again last night, i love a dugout for its comfort, its the most comfortable bed i've had on this journey, the sun a fiery ball coming through the trees reminds me of an overdue thanks i need to articulate, and it being the seventh day, it seems appropriate:

dear god, i would like to take this opportunity to thank you for the this yellow light, the return of the glorious yellow light, and yet i also thank you for the blueness, the places of shadow in the clefts of the cliffs, the darkside of the moon, i am so glad for the blue light in the heat of a mississippi july! thank for your coolness, and thank you for your warmth, for the screaming creatures around us, the geese, the eagles, and the soft crying of the songbirds, crying like how my heart is now crying in loneliness and love-pain for the woman i miss and towards whom every day i paddle -

now let me thank you for diverting the fury of the storm away from our section of river near wolf point, our camp at prarie elk rapids, i saw the snow laden clouds the next morning still lingering over the bear paw mountains far to the west, and two or three days later when i saw the snow you dumped in north dakota and the deep drifting there, so i recognized your hand in diverting the path of the "big a," you created an eye of calm in our vicinity -

we were hit by the wind, the plunging temperatures, and some snow, but you steadied the fury, i am not blind, i saw your work, you enabled us to continue ours, we were showered in a crystalline theatre, the hexagonal rainbow-makers flaked from the stars were settled down in such a way upon our forest and around our camp that we were witness to to the beauty yet not whipped by the fury, in joy must come the pain: to be sure, my hands were numbed and my feet were cold, it was difficult to leave the warm cocoon of the sleeping bag, to leave the ring of the fire and enter the atmosphere of cloud-making breaths, each exhileration leaving a smokestack eruption of steam, our respiration lingering in the air, all other creatures were silent or lay in their warm caves (like the ground hog), but we two struggled to our feet and made clouds of steam, the river breathed steam, we breathed steam, what inspires the river inspires us, what is it that fills our spirits and enables us to defy death one more glorious morning?

the same spirit that enables the river to flow and escape freezing, the most basic spirit, the great spirit, the spirit of god that hovers over the water and blazes with the yellow morning light and lays quietly in the blue light, we breathe in that spirit and are enabled another day of life, for which this morning we are cognizant and grateful -

we breathe out that spirit through our paddle strokes, our writing andfilm making, our photoggraphy and painting, every stroke we make is another stroke closer to you, dear god, we hope so!

if our prayer be silent or be made audible please know it is found within these songs and words, in each paddle stroke, we rejoice in your spirit, the spirit that moves the river, the spirit of life, and of death -

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