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Monday,
November
25
Parkville,
Missouri,
Mile 377
i
just reread
yesterday's
journal,
and here
post a note
for the
attrocious
typos -
which i
am going
to leave
in place:
i was writing
in my fingerless
gloves,
my fingers
freezing,
the wind
blowing
cold, ash
and smoke
from the
fire blowing
round my
face. and
so i will
leave the
messy writing
in place
as it will
help describe
the environment
as i was
there writing.
4am this
morning:
the jets
beginning
to roar,
the trains
rolling
all night
long (at
dark i was
imagining
the engineer
leaning
his head
out the
window and
watching
us in the
light of
our bonfire,
our faces
visible
in the light
of the flames),
all else
was silent,
not even
a possum
was stirring.
i didn't
hear nothing
last night
except the
wind and
the steady
riolling
freight
trains,
it seemed
like one
an hour,
a lot of
freight
being moved
around this
country.
venus
was our
guiding
light this
morning
when we
put out
on the water
(6am), still
quite visible
above the
lights of
kansas city,
dancing
merrily
over the
amber glow
of the city,
herself
clad in
a sparkling
dress of
yellow sequins,
light radiating
off her
dancing
shoes and
her diamond
tiara, ever
beckoning
us on (since
her reappearance
in the morning
sky a couple
of weeks
ago), she
will be
our guide
to St. Louis,
eventually
she will
guide me
back to
the woman
who awaits
me at the
bluff city.
there
is a disparate
collision
of forces
on the winter
river, the
south wind
and the
north wind,
(the same
zephyr and
borealis
that used
to toss
walter anderson
around the
waters of
the mississippi
gulf islands),
the green
grasses
and the
barren cottonwoods,
the warm
sun and
the cold
river, the
low-angle
light followed
by the 360
degree predominance
of the stars
and planets,
the long
nights and
short days,
the wild
river bottoms
and the
pastoral
society
over the
levee, the
wilderness
and the
power plants,
mansions
on the edges
of the cities
and river
rat camps
below wing
dams, the
brutal wind
and serene
campsites,
the carnage
of hunters
and the
proclivity
of creatures,
the chaos
of driftwood
the noble
forests,
the adundance
of life
the comstant
reminder
of death,
and etc
& c.
all of these
elements,
sometimes
polarized,
sometimes
not, tug
at the imagination.
they might
cause the
body discomfort,
but the
spirit is
set free.
Sunday,
November
24
Between
Sevenmile
and Island
Creeks,
Mile 387
the
sun is setting
over the
riverblurff
opposite
us, its
branches
scraping
the sky,
you can
see every
twig silhouettedin
the layers
of cloud
and light
which are
sliding
southeastward,
a cold north
wind blowing
- the arctic
air has
caught up
with us
again, everywhere
we go borealis
is chasing
us. i have
been seeing
geese flying
with the
wind today,
not against
it as yesterday.
it earlier
looked like
snow or
sleet, but
now it looks
like the
sky is going
to cleaer
and the
temperature
drop. it
is fitting
that our
last night
before kansas
city we
get hit
again with
winter,
we seem
to be harbingers
of winter
wherever
we go.
a
sad story:
in atchison
we were
greeted
by a family.
they were
going out
in a boat
downstream
to look
for their
son, who
they believe
fell off
the atchison
bridge.
as we passed
under the
rusting
steel structure
(its an
attractive
bridge)
i thought
of their
boy walking
out along
the pipe
on the other
side of
the guardrail,
then falling
to the water.
we told
them that
we would
keep our
eyes open
for him
as we paddled
downstream
for which
they thanked
us profusely.
now
the sun
is dropping
below the
cloudline,
the outer
edge flaring
yellow,
and i am
illuminated
for these
few minutes
before sunset,
a band of
brilliantly
highlighted
choppy waves
made in
the river,
two bald
eagles,
who greetedus
upon our
arrival,
are now
soaring
over the
bluff. it
seemed impossible
that they
have found
a place
to soar
with such
high winds,
the bluffs
must be
sending
skyward
billowing
volumes
of air and
buffeting
them along.
dear reader,
yuou are
probably
thinking,
"doesn't
he evr study
anyuthing
else other
than the
eagles?
my notebook
is full
of eagle
drawings,
sketches,
descriptions,
pastels,
and paintings.
well yes,
there are
other animals.
i saw some
bluejays
today, scavaging
in the lee
of the riverbank,
alongside
some small
songbirds,
maybe wrens.
but no animal
is so prevalant,
and so easily
viewed as
we paddle
along. with
a stunning
wingspan,
and its
striking
cry, who
could but
not be in
constant
awe of our
friend wanbli?
i am sorry
we stopped
here, because
we are quite
exposed.
my rule
of thumb
is "stop
at the first
good camp
you come
to."
but now
the wind
has shifted
and we are
being hit
with numbing
cold air.
perhaps
it will
still after
nightfall.
its going
to be a
miserable
night if
it doesn't.
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Saturday,
November 23
Opposite
Fort Leavenworth,
Kansas
I
got an email today
from Venessia
Young. She and
her mother have
been following
us. Hello eKatherine
and Venessia!
Thanks for keeping
up with us, keep
us in your thoughts
and prayers!
everywhere
we have camped
since bismark,
north dakota,
we have been near
loud noises, bright
lights, or noxious
fumes. it is surprising
how many power
plants there are
on the missouri.
there's no way
the few people
who actually inhabit
the shores use
all of the electricity
produced, so it
must be generated
for export, i
imagine chicago,
minneapolis, and
other midwestern
metropolises benefit
from this power.
while our surroundings
might be quite
different than
what lewis &
clark experienced,
the act of camping
is the same, we
still cook over
a fire, sleep
in our bags thrown
in tents (i sleep
in the water ram
when its not raining
or snowing). a
good campsite
is a good campsite,
it doesn't matter
which era you
are from. tops
on my list is
sand or grasses,
proximity to the
canoes (which
means a good landing
and a camp close
to it) and driftwood
or other firewood
readily available.
the
missouri seems
to be widening
a little bit here,
and its curves
have taken on
bigger dimension,
requiring more
miles to get around
the corner. at
sioux city the
bends seem to
come every three
or four miles,
but here it seems
more like seven
or eight. there
is a formula for
river curves,
which says that
a river makes
a bend every seven
times its width,
so maybe that
is in effect.
i
saw a huge flock
of migratory birds
this afternoon,
far over the forest,
it looked like
a cloud from the
distance. overhead
were more snow
geese going north,
once again fighting
the north wind.
i thoought i heard
a frog in the
warmth of the
afternoon, but
that might have
been wishful thinking.
i did see several
moths and butterflies
crossing the river,
and it was an
afternoon for
flying spiders,
the air was laced
with their long
range webs, they
kept landing in
my canoe and climbing
around my gear,
i was glad for
the company. thick
swaths of willows
are beginning
to be seen on
the sandbars,
their leaves turning
a fiery orange,
the sight of them
reflected in the
river reminds
me of the lower
mississippi. a
flock of wild
turkeys flew across
the river just
before sundown,
their bodies fat
and black, flying
in a beeline from
one shore across
to the other.
i wonder what
a wild turkey
would taste like
roasted up overe
our fire. we saw
some white tailed
deer just before
we made our landing
for camp.
Friday,
November 22
Mile
442, below St.
Joseph, Missouri
i'm
sitting by the
fire watching
the full moon
rise through the
thin cottonwoods
on the opposite
bank. we left
st. joseph a few
hours earlier
today, i had the
time to visit
the albrecht kemper
museum while mike
charged batteries
and did computer
stuff. it suddenly
makes sense why
thomas hart benton
wrapped his horizons
towards the edges
of his paintings,
the landscape
is just too big,
the river views
too wide, the
sky too broad
an expanse, the
canvas is too
small, no canvas
would be big enough
to be able to
fit it in proper
proportion. in
omaha i saw some
of karl bodmer's
originals at the
joslyn museum.
his solution was
too diminunitize
the forest, the
hills, the mountains,
while leaving
the sky and the
river full scale.
my favorite bodmer's
are his forest
scenes, those
from the wabash
and the lower
mississippi. as
a documentor of
the american indian
he is unsuropassed.
but his painting
really comes out
as his brush follows
the lines of the
trees, the vines
drooped over them,
the chaotic piles
of driftwood,
and his grasses,
sometimes emerging
from somber dark
places, other
times blowing
in a sunny wind.
as
we paddled out
of st. jo we had
a farewell committee:
a herd of wild
turkeys ("flock"
just doesn't seem
to apply to turkeys
somehow) directly
below a grain
elevator:
a
herd of wild turkeys
scurrying
by the grain elevator
gobble!
gobble! gobble!
and
then as darkness
fell, five eagles
were perched in
a cottonwood,
our welcoming
committee to the
night:
five
silent wanbli
waiting in a tree
when
we pass under
scree!
scree! scree!
now
an owl is hooting
in the forest,
and some deer
run behind our
camp. how do i
know they're deer?
for the snorting
sound. every day
now we look for
wanbli, the eagle,
he seems to be
our guardian angel.
this morning the
river bluffs were
clipped by wide
beams of sunlight,
heavy with humidity,
humid shafts of
light descending
between breaks
in the bluffs,
in one mike was
momentarily exposed
as he paddled
toward a solid
wall of bluff,
rising immensly
in front of his
passage, dark
and forbidding,
like the oncoming
wall of a tsunami,
the sunlight striking
him as if someone
backstage had
cast him in the
spotlight.
another
frosty morning,
never before have
i needed an ice
scraper for my
canoe. when i
get home, and
people ask me
about the expedition,
i'll tell them
it was an ice-scraper
expedition.
Thursday,
November 21
Mile
478, somewhere
below White Cloud,
Kansas
we're
camped on a muddy
flat below a dike,
just downstream
from cannon creek,
when we brought
the canoes in
for a landing
it was just getting
dark. will we
ever see a camp
in the daylight?
it seems doubtful
given the amount
of daylight we
are now experiencing.
our consolation
here is the view
of bluffs opposite
us, which even
in the darkness
loom gigantically
over the river,
the trees in our
camp standing
out silhouetted
in the evening
light, with which
the river is shining.
it has been a
windy day, gusts
of wind out of
the north pounding
the river and
keeping us frantically
paddling left
and right. we
were blessed that
it was a northerly
wind. the other
consolation is
the sound of the
river rolling
over the dike.
we haven't had
much river noise
since our camp
at prairie elk
rapids. dozens
of flocks of snow
geese fighting
the north wind.
they should be
going south. i
wonder why they
were so insistent?
all day we saw
them as we we
borne southward
in the same wind
they chose to
flap against,
often times with
little motion.
perhaps they know
something we don't.
three
nights out of
the last four
we have paddled
into the night,
by moonlight (tomorrow
morning we'll
begin paddling
again with the
light of luna,
as we make an
early start).
night paddling
is a boon for
us in this season
of short light.
the river here
has been so channelized
you could navigate
it blindfolded.
night paddling
has another benefit.
those bends that
bore you during
the day with their
monotony suddenly
junp to life at
night. every motion
of the canoe,
every paddle stroke
forward, every
motion of the
river, you register
by the silhouettes
of the trees passing
each other, trees
passing forests
or bluffs behind,
the bluffs sliding
through the stars
hung in the blue
black sky. in
no circumstance
can you better
feel the the curving
motion of the
river as it implacably
slides through
america's heartland.
todays'
firsts: a possum
is prowling around
our camp, so i
guess that means
we're getting
south. I saw my
first honey locust
tree on the missouri
side of the channel.
the maples, which
seemed to enter
the river scape
even with the
confluence of
the platte (fifteen
miles below omaha),
are now flush
with leaves still
in the cycle of
change. i saw
green moss growing
in the forest
floor around rulo,
missouri.
i
have been studying
the color and
the shapes of
the oak trees,
which huddle like
clotted blood
on a barn floor
in the riverside
bluffs. the oaks,
the beech, and
the sycamore are
all hanging stubbornly
to their leaves.
i have also been
studying the effect
of gusting wind
on the face of
the water, and
the way in which
small waves add
up to bigger ones.
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Sunday,
November 16
Mile
644, below OPPD Nuclear
Power Plant
a night
float with a moon near
full:
we started
out this morning with
our usual early start,
6:30am, i was trying
to decide which way
the wind was blowing,
it seemed westerly,
then northwesterly,
but we were camped below
a grove of trees, and
alas, the wind was out
of the south. as we
paddled into sunrise
it proceeded to blow
harder and harder. we
kept paddling until
noon, when it the river
began whitecapping in
the sections exposed
to the southeast, and
then lay-by for it to
settle down.
at sundown
we began paddling anew,
the wind indeed quieted
down, but not calm,
still blowing out of
the southeast. fortunately
the winding of the river
foiled the full brunt
of the wind, and we
paddled into the night
on a mostly quiet river,
the forest beginning
to awaken with the sounds
of the nocturnal creatures.
at dark, two eagles
started out of the trees,
and a third, a bald
eagle, stood on a branch
and eyed us fearlessly
(the others were probably
bald eagles as well,
but i didn't get a good
look at them). beavers
could be heard chewing
bark. i scared a racoon
off a sandbar. some
deer were in the woods:
we could hear the snapping
of branches, and buck
snorts. the moon was
already risen before
the sun set (it is one
or two days away from
full), so we could see
the face of the river
clearly, the boils exploding
seemlessly amidst the
current, making undulating
mirrors. i wondered
if keith kirkland was
out on the wolf river
or the lower mississippi
doing one of his full
moon floats.
for all
of its channelization,
the missouri here is
excellent night paddling:
it is wide with good
current. there is no
traffic, and finally
there are no buoys.
our friends the geese
began flocking after
the sunset, we could
see thousands of them
silhouetted by the moon.
it was funny that they
waited until sunday
night to fly. all weekend
we had been encountering
frustrated hunters,
wondering where all
the waterfowl were.
One hunter told me that
400,000 geese had ended
up a place outside their
normal miggration route:
western nebraska, out
on the wyoming/colorado
borders. some storm
had blown them there
he said. i knew which
storm he was referring
to! it was the storm
that brought snow and
sub-zero temperatures
to us as we were paddling
the section below fort
peck. so the geese we
saw in montana made
it to nebraska! this
was exciting news.
Thursday,
November 14
Somewhere
above Ponca, Nebraska
wow, warm
feet sure feel good
on a cold day. all morning
i was paddling along
in the cold wind out
of the northwest, overcast,
the rest of me toasty,
but my feet not getting
circulation. when we
stopped for lunch i
made a big fire and
took off my boots, dried
my socks, we ate, heated
up some tea, then started
paddling again. it was
almost like getting
in your car with a mug
of coffee on a winter's
day. this is a routine
mike and i have devoloped
on the missouri, and
it sure is nice. that
little spot of tea while
you're paddling away
from camp makes the
paddling a little more
cheerful. and my warm
feet made me feel like
singing.
we almost
paddled fifty miles
today, our biggest day
yet, and our first full
day on the free-flowing
river. from here on
out there are no dams,
no lakes to get around,
no one controls the
flow except the dear
lord (and the engineers
at the last dam, gavin's
point). i was so happy
yesterday to see free-flowing
water i almost cried.
we awoke at 5am and
were paddling by 6:30,
after a breakfast of
9 eggs and leftover
quinoa.
the missouri
at low water doesn't
follow normal rules
of river circulation.
it's quite confusing.
on the big river (when
its flowing bank full)
the current generally
stays on the outside
of the bend. on the
little river (low water)
the channel seems to
often hug the inside
of the bend. i am glad
it does, it cuts off
some mileage, but it
has taken me a while
to become accustomed
to, and when i get back
to my dear old lower
mississippi it may require
some time to become
unaccustomed. it's like
learning to read backwards
in japan, then having
to learn to read the
opposite upon returning
home. several times
during the day i was
happily paddling along
in a generous current,
(practically singing
through the lowlands
compared to the sluggish
water we have experienced
to date), and then suddenly
found myself bereft
of water motion. the
river had abandoned
me, several hundred
yards away another channel
was endowed with the
water i had been floating
on.
every day we have seen
eagles and today was
no exception. i saw
seveeral flocks of plovers.
and dozens of flocks
of plastic geese. it
is that time of year
and the hunters have
staked their claim on
the sandbars. there
were more plastic geese
and ducks than live.
i talked to a disgruntled
hunter, he hadn't seen
any waterfowl. just
before dark, as miguel
and i were coming in
for our landing at camp
three flocks of geese
passed high overhead.
so, our friends have
caught up with us again.
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Saturday,
November 9
Mobridge,
South Dakota
(more notes
from an artist's writing pad):
finally a sunny
day (the day we left bismark)
and calm enough for me to
jump in the river and bathe,
its been several days now,
the water is cold to be sure,
but its not a good swim until
you get an ice cream headache.
we entered an
area of granite and square
buttes in north dakota, granite
boulders protruding out of
the river banks, colorful
granite stones, some reddish,
some rosy, some bluish or
yellowish, all speckled in
that grainy granite way. wonderful
sandbars. if it wasn't wintertime,
and we weren't seeking shelter
every night, the sandbars
would be great camping. as
it is, we take cover in the
safety of the cottonwoods.
like lewis and clark, we wouldn't
have been able to get this
far without these trees of
the floodplains. how dismal
it seems on the edges of the
big lakes of the missouri,
where the trees have all been
flooded, or can't grow because
of the fluctuating water levels
(for instance, lake oahe is
30 feet under normal). south
dakota seems to have similar
geology, the land lines far
extended over great distances,
disappearing over the horizon,
short but solid buttes, tawny
grasslands, some badlands,
the grassy heights crumbling
away here and there, the smoothness
of the great plains falling
away into multi-colored earth
eroded into strange shapes:
chimneys, cornices, thick
mud found below, the kind
of mud that sticks between
your toes and doesn't let
go, what they call gumbo in
the mississippi delta.
i am always
glad to be following the river,
and slightly uneasy to be
away from it, its always we've
rambled, this river you and
i. my rivers must always be
clean, i must always be able
to swim in my river, to drink
its waters, anything less
is unaaceptable. everyone
follows the rivers, at first
anyway, the explorers, the
trappers, the hunters, the
miners, the ranchers, the
homesteaders, its only the
trains, the planes, the highways
that have deviated (good riddance!).
its always i've followed the
river, when my path has forked
it my body only that climbs
the hill and walks away, my
heart stays tumbling with
the current.
Sunday,
Nov. 3
Washburn,
North Dakota (John)
(more notes
from an artist's writing pad):
wind out of
the west, the sun just rose
an orange ball out of the
forest opposite us and now
the geese are rising in noisy
flocks from the sand flats
at the base of the island
above us, i slept in the dugout
again last night, i love a
dugout for its comfort, its
the most comfortable bed i've
had on this journey, the sun
a fiery ball coming through
the trees reminds me of an
overdue thanks i need to articulate,
and it being the seventh day,
it seems appropriate:
dear god, i
would like to take this opportunity
to thank you for the this
yellow light, the return of
the glorious yellow light,
and yet i also thank you for
the blueness, the places of
shadow in the clefts of the
cliffs, the darkside of the
moon, i am so glad for the
blue light in the heat of
a mississippi july! thank
for your coolness, and thank
you for your warmth, for the
screaming creatures around
us, the geese, the eagles,
and the soft crying of the
songbirds, crying like how
my heart is now crying in
loneliness and love-pain for
the woman i miss and towards
whom every day i paddle -
now let me thank
you for diverting the fury
of the storm away from our
section of river near wolf
point, our camp at prarie
elk rapids, i saw the snow
laden clouds the next morning
still lingering over the bear
paw mountains far to the west,
and two or three days later
when i saw the snow you dumped
in north dakota and the deep
drifting there, so i recognized
your hand in diverting the
path of the "big a,"
you created an eye of calm
in our vicinity -
we were hit
by the wind, the plunging
temperatures, and some snow,
but you steadied the fury,
i am not blind, i saw your
work, you enabled us to continue
ours, we were showered in
a crystalline theatre, the
hexagonal rainbow-makers flaked
from the stars were settled
down in such a way upon our
forest and around our camp
that we were witness to to
the beauty yet not whipped
by the fury, in joy must come
the pain: to be sure, my hands
were numbed and my feet were
cold, it was difficult to
leave the warm cocoon of the
sleeping bag, to leave the
ring of the fire and enter
the atmosphere of cloud-making
breaths, each exhileration
leaving a smokestack eruption
of steam, our respiration
lingering in the air, all
other creatures were silent
or lay in their warm caves
(like the ground hog), but
we two struggled to our feet
and made clouds of steam,
the river breathed steam,
we breathed steam, what inspires
the river inspires us, what
is it that fills our spirits
and enables us to defy death
one more glorious morning?
the same spirit
that enables the river to
flow and escape freezing,
the most basic spirit, the
great spirit, the spirit of
god that hovers over the water
and blazes with the yellow
morning light and lays quietly
in the blue light, we breathe
in that spirit and are enabled
another day of life, for which
this morning we are cognizant
and grateful -
we breathe out
that spirit through our paddle
strokes, our writing andfilm
making, our photoggraphy and
painting, every stroke we
make is another stroke closer
to you, dear god, we hope
so!
if our prayer
be silent or be made audible
please know it is found within
these songs and words, in
each paddle stroke, we rejoice
in your spirit, the spirit
that moves the river, the
spirit of life, and of death
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